my dream.

The first picture my parents received of me

I got the job offer with Samsung.  There is a whole story behind it that I'll save for another time but I have to say, this is surreal.  There's a lot that needs to come together in order for me to go, financially, scheduling, getting about a million things done.  Right now, it seems impossible and my over analytic, sociological mind is telling me I can never do it.  But my heart is telling me this is the opportunity of a lifetime.

I've had this idea to teach English in Korea since I was 17 and it's been a long road to get to even having the chance to go.  I'm nearing my college graduation and here I am with a job offer.  I want to be excited, jump up and down, shout, be so happy...but it's unreal.  Mainly because I don't know if I have the means to get to Korea financially but honestly, knowing your dreams are coming true is quite possibly the scariest moment in your life.  It means all of your hard work paid off.  It means change.  It means taking risks.  It means accepting the fact that something great has happened to you.

I've dreamed for so long what it will be like to step foot on the country I was born in.  The love and support from my family, friends, professors has been amazing.  There are so many times where I think other people just don't understand what it's like to be an adoptee but this unwavering support just shows me how much you all love me and want to help me fulfill my dream.

Sending Hyunwoo back to Korea 6 years ago..we would live only 30 min away if I accept the job

The chance to see my birth country.  Finally being able to reconnect with Hyunwoo for the first time in six years.  Learning Korean so I can practice what I preach about the importance of bi-lingual education.  Gaining valuable experience as a future ESL teacher.  Paying off debt.  Saving for grad school.  Not working at Applebee's with a bachelor's degree.  Connecting with other adoptees and orphans. Not being one of those people who never step out of what is comfortable.  Seeing the world.  Gaining a better understanding of who I am, where I came from, and what has shaped me into the woman I am today...

All these things are reasons why I want this so badly.  Thank you to everyone who is supporting me, sending words of encouragement, pulling strings for my graduation, giving extensions, listening to me whine and be crazy, letting me know how much I will be missed....thank you for believing in my dream.

It's coming true...I just have to decide the time I want it to come true.